Will you listen..even if to no one… At least to yourself
a shower on a hot afternoon was justice
Then I heard my body say
As though to complain
I stopped to listen
I paused in the shower
So what do you want?
More sleep? More pizza. More vegetable?
More coffee or more wine?
She was hesitant
The water running down her spine
I inspected her stretch marks
And tried to point them mistakes
Like a teacher on duty would.
She stood too scared
I forced flat what I thought was big
No.. The tummy should be flat,
The waist should be smaller
So I clenched it with my hands
Again she wanted me to listen..
I looked at her in the mirror
Shed been staring at me
This whole time..
Tears welled up then down her cheeks.
Then I realised, she deserved an apology
For the many scolds of grow! Or shrink!
Add here! Reduce some weight here.
She was asking for more love
She wanted to be accepted
She wanted the I love you texts and words I say daily to others
The embrace I give to everyone but her
The many excerpts dedicated to others than self
The many chances I gave others but her.
She needed to be learnt and known
Strengthened at her weak and
Maximized at her strong
She just needed more..
More of me, of my time
Not of silver or gold
More of me.